I was sitting here the other day feeling rather lost. I am not lost by any means,s but the feeling was hovering around me.
I felt as if something was missing, not that I long for anything extravagant at all, the simple things bring me pleasure but even the simple things do not bring me a certain satisfaction. I felt as if I didn’t quite know where to put myself right then.
Do you ever feel as if the world we live in is not real? Like its not all what it seems to be. Perhaps there is more to it? I feel that all the time.
There is an ache in my heart for something more, something that can only be filled by God and knowing where my destiny lies.
I feel I am chasing something that I cannot find here on earth. I love the book of Ecclesiastes in the bible, this passage explains some more.
(You can read Ecclesiastes here: https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ecclesiastes+1&version=NKJV )
3 What profit has a man from all his labor
In which he toils under the sun?
4 One generation passes away, and another generation comes;
But the earth abides forever.
5 The sun also rises, and the sun goes down,
And hastens to the place where it arose.
6 The wind goes toward the south,
And turns around to the north;
The wind whirls about continually,
And comes again on its circuit.
7 All the rivers run into the sea,
Yet the sea is not full;
To the place from which the rivers come,
There they return again.
8 All things are full of labor;
Man cannot express it.
The eye is not satisfied with seeing,
Nor the ear filled with hearing.
9 That which has been is what will be,
That which is done is what will be done,
And there is nothing new under the sun.
10 Is there anything of which it may be said,
“See, this is new”?
It has already been in ancient times before us.
11 There is no remembrance of former things,
Nor will there be any remembrance of things that are to come
By those who will come after.
These words convey some of what I feel.
For in much wisdom is much grief,
And he who increases knowledge increases sorrow.
He who increases knowledge increases sorrow…. I think this is where it all starts for me….
You see I can’t ignore all the things going on in the world, I can’t really even turn my head. It seems what is happening around us is too difficult for many people to look at, its hard, its draining, its dangerous, it can be destroying… but I must look.
And with the looking comes the burden on knowledge. This is where my dissatisfaction started from.
I had to look and I had to acknowledge what I saw, when I did this is took me to only several conclusions. It required of me some kind of action, firstly not looking away, secondly deciding what it is that I am meant to do right now…
I feel as if part of what I am meant to do is point the way, be a voice, be an arrow in God’s hands….
How do you feel about the current world events? Have you noticed that you have option to look or look away for yourself?
In looking comes a responsibility but the question then becomes what will you do if you look and see?
Looking has led me to speaking, and encouraging others to have courage to look.
I encourage you… have courage… look and then ask God “What is it that I am to do with this knowledge?”
How much longer can we pretend everything is going to be alright here????